And then you start to wonder - am I giving back proportionately to what I'm getting from these people? Do they know I'm cheering them on too? Do I make their life's victories unforgettable? Do I make them feel like a million bucks? Do I tell them, "thanks," even when there's not some huge accomplishment to celebrate? Each day of my life, am I showing appreciation to these people who make my life so dazzling, so fulfilling, so enriching, and so sitting-on-top-of-the-world amazing?
So let's talk about my mom (who will probably be the first one to read this, the first one to tell me she read it, and she will cry when she reads it; don't make me call you that word, Mom):
My mom is awesome.
Sometimes, I try to let her know that all of MY accomplishments that SHE is so proud of actually come from HER. I didn't just fall onto this earth and teach myself everything I know. I didn't appear in this world with an innate sense of how to be a good person. I was raised by two awesome parents and a whole slew of other family members who helped shape me into this young lady you see before you today. She probably won't accept credit for any of this because she probably doesn't think that she was really trying to do any of what I'll give her credit for; and maybe that's true - maybe she didn't try to instill a love of learning in her kids, maybe she didn't intentionally sit down and create a plan for how she would make her kids grow up to be good people, maybe none of this was a conscious effort. Maybe the fact of the matter is that my mom is such an amazing person that she doesn't have to try to impart those qualities unto her children: she just does. She exudes kindness, curiosity, enthusiasm - and we followed her example.
So thanks for reading to me when I was a kid. Thanks for taking me to the library for story hour and letting me buy books whenever the Scholastic book orders came home in my book bag. Although I didn't understand it as a kid, thanks for all the educational field trips we took: nature centers, museums, parks. Thanks for setting an example for the way I should treat other people. Thanks for encouraging my curiosity with painting projects, homemade crayons, quilting, bedazzlers, Play-doh, Fashion Plates (man, I loved Fashion Plates!), crafts with Grandma, and all sorts of other stuff. Thanks for letting me play outside and make up songs to sing to myself. Thanks for my siblings who joined in a lot of these shenanigans and continue to challenge me (mentally and otherwise). Thanks for letting me be involved in a million activities and driving me back and forth from so many of them. And thanks for putting up with the perfectionist little kindergartener Emily who erased her mistakes until she burned holes in the paper - and continuing to put up with perfectionist Emily to this day. Thanks for being the first person I call when I get good news because I know you'll be the most excited and most proud of anyone I call.
Speaking of phone calls and good news: I thought this was the best way to share news with a bunch of people who care about what I'm up to (because there just aren't enough hours in the day to call/text all of you). In the last 48 hours, I have learned that I am accepted or offered a phone interview at nearly all of my top choice PhD programs. I have been awarded a fellowship at one school, in competition for a fellowship at another, and awaiting to hear more from others. I am ecstatic, and I feel as though years of hard work, once again, has paid off. I also feel incredibly grateful to all who have led me here, in one way or another. Expect to hear more updates, as my decision process progresses.
For now, I must leave you to prepare for a phone interview, at which point I'm super grateful for my dad who has taught me everything I know about socializing with strangers. He might not know that he's charismatic, but he is, and I'm glad to have learned that trait from him. By golly, I was blessed with two pretty rocking parents. Go hug your parents, if you can, y'all! Or hug your kids! Life is good.
Peace, love, and Fashion Plates--
Emily :)
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